I feel alone and empty. I've been using substance abuse as a means to escape it, but it hasn't really helped, it's just given me another worry (health). 6.5/10 would maybe recommend it to someone who's depressed.

I don't know why I feel like this. I want to be able to just appreciate life as it is, but for some reason I can't. Is it lack of hobbies? Is it lack of friendship? Lack of love, maybe? Lack of appreciation? What am I lacking?

I can't figure it out, all I know is what my brain thinks it desires to fix it, whether it craves love, attention or a cigarette. I know none of these fix the problem, at least they haven't in the past, so, then, what is it I can do?

I'm so very tired of living like this, every day but another one filled with boredom and desire for more.

Can someone come save me, please?

My daily recommendation is... May's minuet by Niwamori Piano ♡